Tuesday, September 22, 2009
I remembered when I was in University Final Year. I can almost die.
I played like most University Undergrads. I played my hearts out in my year 1 and as a result, I flunked 8 out of 16 modules. Half of my year one's modules.
I was upset and disappointed in myself and thought I shouldn't deserve this. However, I tried to take these extra modules as I went along my 2nd and 3rd year. No matter how hard I tried, I flunked some modules along the way. I was never able to clear one semester or year without failing a module.
Then came my final year, I had 8 modules. I had my final year project as well (which took up all my time at the lab, writing the 50 - 80 pages of report and so on). I had no time to study and I was left with 2 weeks before the examinations to study. What made things worse was that I had 11 days for all 8 papers. Packed back to back examination timetable.
I slept 2-3 hours daily and struggled. As soon as I finished one paper, I went back to the hostel to rest about an hour or so and I was back on the books / notes. Daily, it was a torture. I felt like a zombie. I didn't give up because I wanted to clear my University Years in the 4 years.
Did I feel like giving up ever? I did. I was living on just sheer will-power. Do I know what it feels to fail? I do. It sucked. I have not passed a single semester till this point clearing all my modules. It looked bad. Did I lose faith and hope? I did. During my last 2 papers, one in the morning and one at night, I felt like giving up because my mind was so so so tired. I felt like stopping and just sleeping. I was extremely tired (this was the 11th day of living as a zombie).
I forced myself to study and did the best I could. I could not even finish 10 tutorial revision. I did up till 5 and my brain just stopped functioning. I had to memorise another set of notes for the afternoon paper. My mind just could not understand the 6th tutorial of the earlier paper. All I did was stare and stare but my mind didnt work as I was extremely exhausted.
I felt like crying and I felt like this is hopeless. However, all I knew was God told me to trust Him. I was prepared that even if I fail then so be it but I was going to give it my best shot. I wanted to try and live without the regret that I should have.
This is my plea to all of you out there who thinks life and examinations are difficult. Do not blame the circumstances or the situations. We can make it happen. We need to hang in there.
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