Monday, May 19, 2008
I have been thinking quite a bit recently.
In the past, relationships were easy to come by and happened thick and fast for me. As I am now of this current age, 10 years that I have been single. Not through rejection but by choice. I have had opportunities... Some christians, some non-christian girls. Some even pursued me and declared they liked me. I do not deny I am not tempted by some of their advances but the fact is that I have made some decision and set up certain rules for myself. Thus, I did not allow things to progress.
Then recently, there are many nice gals in my life but the problem is I do not feel the 'love'. The part whereby, I really miss them and wish to see them again. I do not have this intense feeling which I used to have when I was dating.
I have been asking myself. Is it because the girls are not pretty? Is it just me? Or is there something else stopping me? These are questions I have no answers as yet. I really do not know. The only way is to seek God and ask Him.
I have been out with girls for one on one 'dates'. I am exploring the options. Maybe when I know them better, I may fall for them. So many questions but so few answers.
There are so many people who are worried about me being single but I can say I am pretty content being single. The only reason why I am even considering all these questions are because I am of that age? Haha... Oh well, girls out there, you just have to wait a little longer... (not trying to sound too ego)
Sunday, May 11, 2008
Started with Tommy Tenny Conference on Saturday. I didnt feel like going. I was moody. I didnt know why. I have been feeling slightly like that since the Secondary 2 Camp.
Maybe it was also due to many past relationships that failed but I never seem to resolve them emotionally cuz I brushed all these emotions aside. Or maybe it's about my walk with God. That I seem so painful to follow Him in the many situations I have to face.
Had a long chat with friends about the life we have to live as a christian. God is not bothered with how man percieve our success. His yardstick is totally different. Even when we fail in the eyes of man, He might deem us as success if we hear His voice and obey. The journey may sometimes be in such a way that we wish we can pack up & leave but we should not and must not! Easier said than done.
Dunno where to start. Dunno wat to say. Went to church service today. As soon as praise started, I could sense God's Presence strongly. I just cried and cried and released much emotions. If you asked me why I cried, I also cannot say for certain except for the fact that there was much pain. So much accumulated pain that I think the Lord just needed to help me do a heart surgery to release all these pent up emotions. It felt good.
Friday, May 09, 2008
When a GIRL is quiet ... millions of things are running in her mind.
When a GIRL is not arguing ... she is thinking deeply.
When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of questions ... she is wondering how long you will be around.
When a GIRL answers " I'm fine " after a few seconds ... she is not at all fine.
When a GIRL stares at you ... she is wondering why you are lying.
When a GIRL lays on your chest ... she is wishing for you to be hers forever.
When a GIRL wants to see you everyday... she wants to be pampered. When a GIRL says " I love you " ... she means it.
When a GIRL says " I miss you " ... no one in this world can miss you more than that.
Life only comes around once make sure u spend it with the right person ....
Find a guy ... who calls you beautiful instead of hot.
Who calls you back when you hang up on him.
Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.
Wait for the guy who ... kisses your forehead.
Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.
Who holds your hand in front of his friends.
Who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.
Who turns to his friends and says, " That's her!! "
Recently been thinking about this topic again. There are some people talking to me about it again recently. I am really wondering why I am remaining single.
For a fact, I am still not very sure of what I want in a mate. If I am unsure, I also do not want to go too deep with any party and hurt someone. Secondly, am I chasing after a fantasy? Am I not looking for a girl that will steal my heart, make me want to see her more, make me nervous and have sweaty palms...?
I really do not want mine to be a matter of it's time to get attached and so let us just do so. That feeling has not surfaced in my heart for a long time. Maybe a reason is also that I have not let anyone near it in ages.
Why? You may ask. I am also not sure.
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