Sunday, October 29, 2006
My dear brother in Christ is going into OBS for 3weeks. Boy, am I going to miss his crazy company and the way he assists me when I have been injured. It has been such a lovely time we shared. The love that brothers share... Please don't think of us as GAY kinda gay but gay as in happy! We really had some good times together playing PS2, chilling out as well.
I mean when we play, we are like 2 overgrown kids. However, we do compete but never allow the competition to sour our friendship because winning is secondary but friendship is number one! You3 Yi4 Wan4 Shui4! Just hope he will shine for Jesus in OBS. Jiayou, pilot buddy!
Anyway, gotta go rest liao. Monday is a long day. Invigilation from 7am till noon. Then meeting in school from 130pm till about 6pm. Need my beauty's rest! I am a beauty only because I am made by Him. A wonderfully and fearfully made creation! Goodnight blog!!
Some people wonder why I have not blogged for a while. Let me explain my schedule.
MONDAY: I was having morning dealing with the class and then had the thanksgiving service. After the thanksgiving service, I had to go for a meeting till about 6pm. Then after that meeting, I rushed off to church to have another meeting for church ministry work. When I reached home and finally rested, it was way past midnight. But that was also because after the meeting, I hung around with some friends to play pool. Just thought of hanging out to chill and relax.
TUESDAY: Though tuesday was a holiday, I woke up a bit later but had to type some work for the Mathematics department to hand in on thursday. It was just 4 pages full to type with own reflections to fill in. Tuesday, my mother suggested I join my uncles and aunties to look at cars. I joined in without realising I sepnt the entire afternoon away. Then I rushed home to wash up and get ready to travel to Serangoon to meet Sophia and gang to attend a meeting for a China service learning trip. It took all the way till 10plus before I finally got to leave. When I reached home, it was about 11plus, close to midnight!
WEDNESDAY: I had to wake up, continue with my report and then prepare to go for my invigilation briefing. After the briefing, I chilled with my colleagues for a while before going home to complete my report. I finished everything by about 10plus. Then I slept.
THURSDAY: Woke up at 5plus to reach school at 6am. To slot the result slips into the report books. Plus I had to prepare some other work to pass to the students. In general, after that, I met parents from 7am till about 1plus 2 pm. Had lunch and then attend another meeting which lasted till about 6pm. After that, went home to rest and prepare for the next day's work. Had to plan end of year work for class before dismissing them.
FRIDAY: Last day of school, none stop action. Met the class in the morning from 745 till 915am. They had recess from 915am till 945am. I had to settle administration and many other matters. Then the short 30 min break for me to catch my breathe. After that, had the emergency exercise till about way past 11plus 12pm. Had lunch then sat through the debrief of the entire event till about 3plus. Then was asked to evacuate school for real as the Principal wants to celebrate the year at Safra. So had to pack and leave. Had some alone time with colleagues from 4pm till 6pm. Then Principal summed up a few things before we proceeded for dinner. When all ended, it was already about 9plus, including a slower dinner. Reached home, had to settle volleyball fixtures. Pulled out all the dates and plan manpower. Who to take the trainings in school and who to bring the teams out, and even having to factor the O level invigilation dates. Took me until about 11plus.
SATURDAY: Went back to school to settle volleyball CCA matters. Reached school at 8am. Settled a lot of paper work, to plan my volleyball match stuff, prepare consent forms and stuff. When I finally finished, went lunch and then sat around to see my B boys train till 5plus. Got home at 545pm, waited a while for Kevin to come my place. Then we proceeded to IMM for dinner with my mum and auntie, to meet my bro & his wife to be. Then shopped at Daiso till about 9plus 10pm. Came home to rest and chat with this bro of mine who is going into OBS for 21days (cos SIA poilet training). Then chatted till we slept because next day must go church.
SUNDAY: Met the cell adults at 10plus to pray and discuss matters. Then officially had cell at 11plus till 1plus. Went to service, had dinner at Changi with some of the youths, together with the adults in the cell. Came home and finally blogged.
IT HAS BEEN A CRAZY WORK WEEK WITH SOME SOCIAL INTERACTION!
What a week it has been. Madness in so many things to meet the deadlines. I am going to collapse at times. Furthermore, when I tried to walk without crutches, my ankle is still sore and painful. The healing is so slow that it is making me sian! I am also affected by the work load. So many deadlines that sometimes I seem to be unhappy and just wish to grumble and not want to do it. Also, reasons upon reasons, it's making this storm of my life unbearable!
God is teaching me a lesson in all these events. He wants me to seek Him and process my emotions with Him, to find my purpose in all that I do once more. What is my talents? What is my role and purpose in teaching? Where has this passion gone to? Has my vision for my role in teaching been disillusioned by the lies and business of work? All these questions, I may not have the answers now. I am really lost and frustrated by many things but I believe!! I truly do believe that God will see me through all these....
I believe my leg would be healed completely in Jesus name! I believe that this season is a period of moulding and submission to my relevant authorithies and do what I must, despite not liking these things at times. I really need to ask God for His vision and passion to do these things which are necessary. I guess the most important thing now is to sort my feelings with Him and capture the passion once again. To know His love for me and His love for the things and people I deal with, more so with the people. That, I must not lose sight! Once all these are settled, the rest are simplier! I will become an eagle which will soar above the storm clouds and not be troubled by circumstances because God is SOVEREIGN! God help me ba...... PAPA, I NEED YOU!!!
Friday, October 20, 2006
This week, I started volleyball training for my teams. I guess I was disappointed with some of their attitude towards the team and me. No decency to tell me if they are not coming for training. Neither did they show commitment. Some even lied to me. I am happy with those who are honest and did not come. I feel very upset this week over some of them.... Even some people, I have seen their character change. Is this really going to be a generation that makes me feel that I am fighting a losing battle to educate? I am really at a loss at times. God help me to help them. Grant me the patience and acceptance.
In a famous quote:
" God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference!"
I guess I really need that to sink in me once again.
Not just for them but for myself to find an inner peace. God is reminding me that there are many things that will happen that are beyond my control but I must still choose my response. There are many ways to react but not all are correct. I guess this is a lesson that I am still going through and learning... I really hope those students who read my blog knows my heart for them and really do not disappoint themselves more than me...!
Thursday, October 19, 2006
I was in pink today. The same pink top in my blog. Here are some comments from my 'supporters' in school: Well, doesn't matter what I do or wear, there will be some who like & some who do not. What more can I say? Except this, don't be jealous if you cannot carry off pink! Haha... I am tanned, that's why I look good in pink. My character also suits pink. Some wear look gay but I don't think I do...! *bleah* =P
Friday, October 13, 2006
Time flew by so quickly that I really lost track of it. This week started with the remaining exams for the students. I was busy marking and invigilating for the entire week, marking 7 stacks of papers! Not a lot hor when you consider 7 classes of about an average of 35 students, of about 10-12 questions per piece so that amounts to peanuts, right? WRONG! I used 5 hours to mark 4 questions in 3 stacks, averaging about 37 students per class/stack. Must make sure marking is consistent, no errors in their workings, adding up marks and stuff...
Mark until BLUR BLUR...!
A highlight for me this week was my new Ipod, all 30G of it! Played with it and got it working...! Yeah. Nice music and things to keep me occupied other than marking.
After marking, have to maker's report and something called compilation. Marker's report was to describe how students fared per question of each paper that I mark. Then compilation was to compile the students' grades and analyse how many distinctions, passes and failures. Also must prepare why students fared in such a manner.
Then got to start preparing comments for my form class. Their attitudes, character and their academic results in the commennts. You might think it is easy but boy, you are wrong, my friend! I spent about 9 hours, including lunch breaks and other breaks (about 20 students)! Total maybe at least 6-7 hours if you really put thought and effort into writing them.
Well, had to prepare CCA schedule and matters for holidays to send to students before they break for holidays so that I do not cause parents unduly trouble to plan for holidays. Then I needed to prepare information for registration of CCA matches.
The other highlight for me this week was today! I was going for breakfast and I met one of the graduating classes, 4F. The girls came to ask me to take photo with them! I taught them last year for PE. Something happened back last year in September(read my older blog in friendster). It brought us closer, even the guys! Just that the girls came to ask me for photo. I was quite taken aback! I am going to miss this class of lovely angels who stole my heart away!
The highlight was not the girls la... Really! Serious! The point was that they kinda remembered me and things like that. It is something that teachers will understand. Furthermore, this class knew how to rob me of my heart... through their actions, sweet actions!
4I asked me to take photo with them too. Well, they are already on their way out of school as they have finished their N level. 5A & 5B, just came into 4F's classroom, took me by suprise by crowding all around me to take photo. They did that to whichever teacher they found. Madness I say, madness! Will load those photos when I get them... Gonna go off liao. Gotta rest soon. Tommorrow start CCA training liao! In the morning so must rest!
Saturday, October 07, 2006
Pretty in pink? I think I look good in pink! These photos were taken some time back... About 3 sundays ago. Just got my hands on them. Think I look natural in them.... So pretty in pink!!! I mean pretty handsome in pink!
Chilled beer on a chilling kinda afternoon at a chill place with a chilling fren....! I am going out in this hazy condition... Nuts! Yeah...! Beats being cooped up at home! Well... Will update my week later tonight. Gotta go chill! Exam papers marked...! Still have new ones to come in but oh well... Each step as it goes...!
Monday, October 02, 2006
The world is imperfect. The people in it too. In church, sometimes, we expect more from people because we expect religious people to be able to see more and do more. However, it is untrue at times. I stood at expo with my crutch and noone was offering any help. I sat down near the toilet on the floor. ALONE...! Poor thing?
Then God told me the reason that why I felt alone and not really cared for is because of my expectations of people to be considerate and caring. However, it is so far from the truth. People are inherently selfish and can do kind stuff only when they are filled with love, a pure love from God.
Then He made me realised how imperfect this church was but He was still using it. When Pastor Khong's family shared about their struggles and I realised that they were struggling too. They are imperfect family. Pastor Khong is also an imperfect man, an imperfect father. He pretty much grew up with the problem of having an absent father who died when Pastor Khong was at an early age. Then his kids also had an absent father in the sense that Pastor Khong had to travel much. The church and ministry also had little of their spiritual father.
What does all these means? It meant that FCBC lacks in fatherhood, which has been how it had been for a while. Pastor Khong is managing to find his way around fatherhood, figuring along as he grows in this area. That is why many people in FCBC leave because they feel there is more to church than all these things we do. I do agree there are times to move on and there are times to stay put.
However, the key is this: Even imperfect, what is my choice? Or rather, what is God's best choice for me?
I know he has a plan for me in FCBC. I will serve Him and love the imperfect chuch. In the meantime, I will look for a father, a mentor, a brother to walk this journey, to run this race with me...! Even so, all is not perfect. Just take it as it comes...! In His time, He makes all things beautiful!
It's the same with any place. Imperfection is everywhere. 1 things I know is this! Be like David. Recognise that the leader is God's elect and God's elite. What we do is pray for them and serve them because it it God's will. Likewise, in any organization, there will be leaders that are imperfect but God has placed them there. We live our lives the way God has intended in this imperfect world...!
Today went for my medical review. Doctor that I saw was not the usual one. He said that my ankle is going to suffer even when I recover 'fully'...! He said it can never be 100%. He also said I might have difficulty in sports in future....! Sian sian sian! How? Why? So many questions... So many unknowns! He was so negative... Didnt give me good vibes. Made me sianz! Doctors are supposed to help people get better and feel better. What a doctor!
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