Sunday, March 22, 2009
Lost Generation by Jonathan Reed
I am part of a lost generation
and I refuse to believe that
I can change the world
I realize this may be a shock but
“Happiness comes from within.”
is a lie, and
“Money will make me happy.”
So in 30 years I will tell my children
they are not the most important thing in my life
My employer will know that I have my priorities straight
because work is more important than family
I tell you this Once upon a time
Families stayed together
but this will not be true in my era
This is a quick fix society
Experts tell me
30 years from now, I will be celebrating the 10th anniversary of my divorce
I do not concede that
I will live in a country of my own making
In the future
Environmental destruction will be the norm
No longer can it be said that
My peers and I care about this earth
It will be evident that
My generation is apathetic and lethargic
It is foolish to presume that
There is hope.
And all of this will come true unless we choose to reverse it .
To understand the true meaning of this (go to this link):
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=42E2fAWM6rA&feature=related
I asked Andy in my tag box if he would burn in hell. I asked him if he is sure of things. Seriously, I do not even know if I might be burning in hell or be asked to enter heaven's gate when the final time comes.
Lambs will be seperated from sheeps. Jesus might say He has never known you / me even though we go around professing He is Lord and God and do miracles in His name.
What makes us eventually being able to go to heaven? To obey His voice and have a relationship with God. Simple truth but to recieve revelation how to walk this journey is not easy. Also, some may fall away from Him because we rationalise, we think we know best, we choose to gratify ourselves...
Am I sure I would even last all the way? I am not sure. I am trying to be as faithful as I can and be accountable for my life. I have had moments of folly and sin (which I cannot mention here since this is a public blog). I am just praying that I can last the distance. Not that I am good but I want to and I want to try to make it. Can I make it? I wouldn't know. I hope and pray I can. Many might want me to fall but that's them. It's a journey between me and God. At most, people like my leader and cell should know.
I have come to realise we are so often to judge others and complain when people do not meet our expectations. Does it mean we are better? Does it mean we should condemn? Does it mean we should say things that are negative? No! On the countary, we should pray for them and ask God to show us how He views them through His eyes.
I know I am not perfect. I know I can fall into a condeming mood sometimes when my emotions are strained. I know I have sometimes shown ways that are very unchristian-like. I know I have so many faults and do fall into temptations. Does it make me any lesser? Do I need to prove to anyone? God knows me best and His words will bring assurance. People will judge, people will say things about me but I guess it does help me see and learn that I need to work on certain areas.
Have I thought if dying for God? I have done that years ago and my response will still be the same. I am sure if I were to die, it is easy. However, to be tortured before I die, I am not sure if I have the strength to endure. All I have been praying all these years is that if I were to ever be tested to that point, God help prepare me.
Monday, March 09, 2009
When one is younger, the guy or girl will shun the person he/she likes out of embarrassment but when one is OLDer... It means a totally different thing. It means the person is not interested and not keen. If someone says that I like her when I have been ignoring her then I will only say she is in delusion or the EQ level is not high enough.
What I look for in a girl is maturity in thoughts and emotions. Not need high EQ but moderate EQ at least. I look for a connection in communication so if I DO NOT even bother to communicate, it will mean I do not want to take it to the next stage. No offence to anyone. I have been treated by some girls in such a manner so I get the point.
Just that point in my life when I am thinking about life partner and certain such thoughts. I have not been actively searching. Even when I have made friends, I am not even sure I would fall in love with any despite the fact that they are nice girls. When I feel 'crush' for some girls, it dies away all too quickly...
I realise sometimes the guy falls in 'love' with girls who are aching and in pain. The guy comes in to comfort her and the connectivity is built. However, is it because the guy will feel important and that she needs him then he feels this way? Or is it really that he cares for her? Or is it for sympathy? Then waiting in patience for her to be ready, can he truly wait? What if she is well enough or when she is not and someone else comes along to take her away? Would all the waiting be in vain? What is one's response and what should it be?
Many questions but there may not be a perfect answer nor any answer at all. Each case may be different. Each case may apply a different set of 'rules'. I guess it all boils down to choices. Even if the guy waits for the girl and eventually she runs off with another guy. Then so be it. It has to be this case and it is just a journey for the guy though I am sure he will be sad if she meant something to him. Life's journey is abstract and different for different people. Each one's journey must be walked by oneself with the leading of God.
Sunday, March 08, 2009
问世间情为何物
That was a question I started asking myself since primary school. Weird as it may seem but it was a question that stemmed from many things that surfaced. I had my 1st crush in P2. She had looks and was smart. Liked her till P5 when I was streamed into another class. Then liked another girl, who had looks but not that smart. She was just tall! I was just compelled by looks. In P6, I was also aware of the 1st gal that liked me. She wasnt that bad looking but I did not like her. Those girls I liked didnt like me. What is love then?
Even as I grew up, I was slapped by my mum, punished by my mum... Scolded at times unreasonably by dad. Caned by mum. Slapped in face by mum. I questioned myself once more what is love?
When I had my 1st few relationships in sec sch and JC, I was hurt and devasted by some of the girls I was together with. Due to certain circumstances, we broke up. Sometimes, I felt used, rejected and hurt. What then is love? Is it just a fleeting feeling?
Then I knew God in P3. I was taught of God's love, which is the purest form of love. Then I formulated my own formula after hearing various preachers and their sermons.
Love is not just a fleeting feeling that makes the heart flutter. LOVE IS COMMITMENT! It is to commit and decide to love despite certain circumstances and situations that may arise. It is not just that fluttery feeling. Love is spelled TIME (quality time for girls; they don't need you to say much at times, just be there). Love is the opposite of LUST. Love is in its purest form in the AGAPE: self sscrificial love. It serves to give and fulfill the one you love but lust takes and seeks to gratify oneself.
The love we seek in life cannot be easily found and given until we are filled with the love of God. Else, the love we give can be limited or swing towards lust. Lust can be very subtle and it will destroy any relationships. Love is indeed patient, kind and long suffering...
Even now, I am still searching and continually finding out what love is as I live it out rather than know it in theory. To my parents, friends, class, cca pupils.... NO GF YET! NO GF YET! STOP BUGGING ME, PPLE! Hahaha.... BIG DISCLAIMER!
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