Monday, November 12, 2007
As I count the years I have been in FCBC (my church), I could not believe the number! It's been a SOLID 19 years. I cannot believe I have been here for so long, given its reputation as a Fast Changing Baptist Church or Forever Crippling Baptist Church and many other nasty names. I am not saying that FCBC is bad or its impression is bad. Nor am I implying that I have been a saint to stay so long. It's just been long gruelling years.
True that FCBC is fast moving and not easy to live with at times. But do we not say that of the many relationships we have? I mean, I did get hurt and felt that church was sucky at various points of my life. What made me stay then? God! Sounds cliche? Well, maybe to you... I mean, the only reason why I stayed in FCBC or for that matter, a christian was the fact that I remembered His goodness and that my life was and is His to begin with. Thus, when God says stay, I obeyed. I struggled as well. There came low points in my life that I wanted to leave the church because of hurts and depression.
I came to a point to say that the church was sucky and I did not need the church. I rationalised to say that since man is inperfect and the church is so messed up, why bother to be in a community nor be at service. All I needed was God what.I was not growing and the church did not make me grow. It was pure desperation that I made a prayer to Him. Help me or I am leaving.
God blessed me and listened to my prayers. He blessed me with the current leader. Not that I am saying my previous leaders were bad but they just were not equipped to help me through certain issues. God had a plan and a purpose for them and me at that point of my life for them to be overseeing me. I pitied these leaders who had to handle me. I was mean, bad, hurt and abusive. Poor them!
Moving on, I was given hope and change was beginning to take part in my life. Not that I am already there. I am still far from it all. I would say that the my current leader surpasses me in many ways despite him being a christian of fewer years. Many people do not accept that and sometimes, many christians fight over this. What difference are we then from the disciples of Jesus when they were arguing who to sit at His sides in heaven? Position in the kingdom of God is not about age, not about leadership, not about what we view as important. If we see all these as important, we miss the point completely.
THE KEY IS SERVANTHOOD and HUMILITY. That's all God is looking for. Not great man with great capabilities. All God looks at is the heart.
When subjected to a younger christian's leadership, are we judgmental to think about the leader negatively? Do we question if this person knows what he/she is doing or do we submit in maturity? I am not saying to do things blindly. Check with the Spirit of God. Submit and learn and know God's purpose in a time such as this.
Many people do not understand submission and Lordship. Many leave the church or even the faith for when they are challenged, they choose to back down. They choose to hear what they wish. They prefer to do as they please. No unequally yoked relationships. No, I cannot abandon her. I love her. BULL****! Do not even start getting close. Boundaries. Awareness. Living for God! No two ways about it! FULLSTOP!
Then there are also those who say, I am too old already. God has passed me by. I do not think I can lead or serve anymore. They are just happy and content to lead a life that is peaceful and slack. I do not mean one cannot enjoy and stuff. I am saying these people are giving excuses. God has a plan for everyone, which is to bear fruits for Him. Fruits that will last. A tree cannot say it does not want to bear fruit. It has to! Such a tree that is useless will be chopped down and burnt. John 15 says that, just that the analogy is one of us being branches.
Just many thoughts that has surfaced about the christian walk over the past few months or so. Been in FCBC so many years and hopefully many more to come! This upcoming year will be a year of sabbeth. It's the 2nd time FCBC has done so. Thus, it's been a point of looking back, thinking and moving forward!
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